KaitoZarasProject

So, my last post on in 2014 and here it is on the bottom half of 2017. In the last few years nothing has really changed, I still suffer from Depression and anxiety. But what has changed is how I see life, see here's the thing. I'v grown more from the past then most people I have been called things like a child and monster, I did things that changed others lives because of my actions and yet I didn't do anything. ONE person doesn't change your life as much as others think they do. YOU let trauma from your life affect that of what happens. As a child I was raped by my own family member, abused by my own mother and my real father leaving when I

Over the past few years I'v been changing, I'v lost friends, I'v lost family, I'v lost loved ones and I'v almost last my own life. Currently I'm fighting depression and anxiety and just feel so alone. There hasn't been much that I can do about it only fight but I feel like I'm losing this fight. After so many years I'v finally just had enough and I'v blocked the closest people in my life because I feel only like I'v been abandoned by them. I truly have no one to go to anymore because no matter how many times they tell me there "there for me" someone else is more important. I felt like breaking down today and crying but I can't because If I do